Ruin My Life

I heard this song yesterday, and it really struck me as I listened to the words:

"Ruin Me"
By Jeff Johnson

Woe to me, I am unclean
A sinner found in Your presence
I see You seated on Your throne
Exalted, Your Glory surrounds You

Now the plans that I have made
Fail to compare when I see Your glory

Chorus
Ruin my life, the plans I have made
Ruin desires for my own selfish gain
Destroy the idols that have taken Your place
'Till it's You alone I live for,
You alone I live for

Woe to me, I am unclean
A sinner found in Your presence
I see You seated on Your throne
Exalted, Your Glory surrounds You

Now the plans that I have made
Fail to compare when I see Your glory

Chorus
Ruin my life, the plans I have made
Ruin desires for my own selfish gain
Destroy the idols that have taken Your place
'Till it's You alone I live for,
You alone I live for

Holy, Holy is the Lord Almighty
Holy is the Lord!

Holy, Holy is the Lord Almighty
Holy is the Lord!

Repeat chorus


When I consider what this song is saying, I wonder, "Am I really willing to pray this prayer? Do I really want God to ruin my life and my plans, and destroy my idols, all for His glory? To the point where I live for Him and Him alone?"

The answer is no. I really don't want Him to do that. I like my life the way it is just fine, thank you very much. My plans are cool with me. I'd like to know what to do, so could He just let me know right now what He wants me to do so I can have everything planned out to the last detail?

His answer is no. My life has been turned upside down several times recently. He's showing me, lovingly and faithfully, that He has something much better in store for me. My short-sighted human nature cannot even begin to grasp the magnitude of His wonderful plans. I just need to trust Him and stop worrying about the future.

Of course, this is much easier said than done. It's a journey. I'm a work in progress. But I am trusting that He will get me there in time.